Did you know that we are using and contaminating our fresh water supply faster than we can replenish it?
Only two percent of the earth’s water is fresh water. Water is used in countless industries, from fracking to the clothing industry. It is essential to survival. The conservation and preservation of water is a necessity.
Think of these facts when you shower, brush your teeth, wash your face, or flush the toilet. Conservation and moderation is key. Awareness is, too.
There are moments, in which, I am so paralyzed with fear, fear of violent acts, the “what ifs” of life, the risks involved in flying miles over land, that I sit in the calm of my environment, and have difficulty seeking or wanting the courage to desire adventure and discovery in my life.
Terrorism, drone strikes, the murder of innocent civilians overseas. The US fuels extremists and violence all for the sake of “freedom”, “democracy”, “The War on Terror”…Propaganda. Feed us reasons that condone such atrocities, we devour them to feel better about our country, ourselves. Ignorance.
School shootings, bombs; murdering teenagers, young adults, old adults, small children. Unnecessary violence and slaughter, in the name of what?
…retribution, retaliation, attention, the perpetuation of violence, hate, and fear. Media spreads the obsession of gruesome stories and actions that never before seemed comprehensible or possible. Do we watch for knowledge, understanding, and answers? Or for entertainment, the inability to look away, or out of fear?
What will come next? Will I be the next victim of some cruel, violent act?Will a loved one?
Entrapping me in fear, these thoughts are with me every day. How do I turn them off? How do I find my desire and passion for traveling, exploration, and life that I had when I was only a few years younger?
The more I learn, the more potent my fears become. And the more dormant my imagination and yearning for excitement and adventure shift. Worrying, I am always worrying, and it’s caused by the knowledge of the world.
To the person that mailed me the short note,
thank you for caring about me. I’m sorry that I do not return the amount of love and support that you have for me. You have treated me with a kindness I’m not sure that I deserve. Thank you for reminding me that I am a firework.
With love and regret,
A value which has now come to light, has been with me unknowingly from the start.
Integrity is that for which I strive.
Not always present in my actions, but positive growth and effortful change will help me become who I know I am.
Integrity- my guiding light. My waxing strength.
The moon’s rays reflect on a blanket of snow-
the darkness interrupted.
The glowing light ignites the unknown.
Here, I am home.
In a little under 2 hours, I’ll be 21 years old.
I used to think how monumental this moment would be.
Instead of being excited for the bars, the drinks, and the crazy nights of fun, I feel a sense of responsibility and maturity.
I think I’m officially growing up, not just by the number of my years, but through life experiences.
I know who and what I want to be.
I had to lose myself completely to figure it out, I guess.
A year ago today, I was a mess.
No, seriously. A grand mess I was.
Isn’t that just like me, though?
I can never do anything the right way, I always have to do it MY way, even if that means taking many detours and wrong turns to get to the right place.
So… Where am I?
I’m an anxious, fear driven, tongue- tied, narcoleptic woman of 21 years with a wish to start new.
And I love every piece of me.
Of the things I am capable!
Oh the places to which I have dragged myself,
and yet here I lay, in the same room I’ve called my own for almost 21 years,
and I’m ready to live.
Does that mean tomorrow I’ll forget my past, my fears, my anxiety, and newly acquired social-awkwardness?
No, probably not.
But, in this moment, I’m looking at life with a positive attitude and saying,
“Hey. I’m 21 years old, and I’m not simply excited because now I can legally drink. I’m excited because I’m coming for you, life, and my arms are wide open.”
So, life, you can either let this happen, or make it really awkward, but tomorrow on my 21st birthday, I’m coming at you with a big hug and a passion to live, love, and accomplish great things.
Ready or not, here I come.